Hurt'n bitter

here i sit by my window,
wondering what good i reaped of life
why does it take so long??
late to realise, before being stabbed by the knife.

in my heart, i compress the feelings,
of love,of care, of hopes and despair
afraid to fall weak; fearing the worse may come..
left behind the memories,
dropping a tear, there and here.

not even in my dreams,
did I dare to take the names,
not in reality,
did I dare to trust again.

I let them be,as a dream forgotten,
fearing the day may come again,
when you leave me broken, in vain!

fear, fright, scare and what not??
gosh!! I am tired of it now..
I cant take it any more..
my love so innocent, was hurt
the trust so deep,so pure..
was tattered with no curt..
for now,I feared, that day may come again!

I fear to love again,
I'm alredy hurt so much,in vain!
not holding the courage,
to repeat the mistakes..!

NO..NO..!! I dare not trust you,
I dare not love you,
for you may mean the world to me,
and you never stay with me!